Blinded by Her Definition of Me by Tremaine L. Loadholt

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Blinded by Her Definition of Me
by Tremaine L. Loadholt

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I’ve died two deaths;
one in her eyes, and one
in her daughter’s eyes.
I’m not who she expected.
her image of me was
a porcelain doll damaged
and cracked, but willing
to be glued by love.

all confidence is lost
upon endless time.

the nimble
glory of lingering love
wanders amongst our
lying tongues. I deny
what we have, I denounce
what she wants.
blinded by her definition
of me, I retreat.

I am not the savior
she needs–my powers
are limited.
she suddenly loses hope.

my ears have been
home to her magnetic cries;
I house secrets–keep
them safe. I won’t
allow anyone to fetch
them without her permission.
she knows my word
is my bond.

I am in the background,
a shadowy image of
her faithful dreams.

@Tremaine L. Loadholt


Welcome to MasticadoresUSA.

MasticadoresUSA was founded by Juan Re Crivello as part of Gobblers/Masticadores in 2021. Its current editor is Gabriela Marie Milton.

MasticadoresUSA features talented writers of poetry and short prose. We primarily publish writers who write in English, and are based in the USA. However, while the publication language remains English, we also welcome the work of our fellow writers from all over the world.

What do we want to bring to our readers? Edgar Allan Poe once wrote: Poetry is the rhythmical creation of beauty in words. This is what we are committed to bringing to you. And that’s not an easy endeavor. 


If you want to submit, please send your work – poetry and/or short prose – to In addition to the piece(s), you want to have published, we need your name, and the address of your site. Submit your work as a docx attachment – not in the body of the email. Limit your submission to two pieces.  We do not accept pieces longer than 300 words.

What are the themes that we are looking for? Surprise us!

However, MasticadoresUSA does not publish any work that contains racist, homophobic, sexist, and hate talk of any kind.

Looking forward to your submissions. 

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  1. Wow Tremaine, this is such a powerfully expressed well done poem. Nice to meet you and congratulations on your submission. Thanks for the introduction Gabriella! 💖

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  2. P.S. I do know you.. hahaha.. we are followers happily!

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      1. That was the bomb.. sorry for the brain fog!💖

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  3. Ingrid dice:

    A haunting and thought-provoking poem!

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  4. trE dice:

    Reblogueó esto en A Cornered Gurly comentado:
    Special thanks to Gabriela, the lovely editor at MasticadoresUSA, for publishing my latest poem. Please do check it out when you have time. Peace and blessings.

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  5. Jeff Flesch dice:

    This is lovely, Tremaine. Powerful.

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    1. trE dice:

      Thank you for reading!

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      1. Jeff Flesch dice:

        You’re most welcome!

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  6. jonicaggiano dice:

    This piece makes you hold your breath! Powerfully packed with emotion and sadness that oozes right off the page. Congratulations of this beautiful publication. Nice to meet you as well. Hugs, Joni

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    1. trE dice:

      Thank you kindly! I appreciate you reading and connecting with this poem.

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      1. jonicaggiano dice:

        My pleasure it was beautifully written. A truly impactful piece. Have a great weekend. Hugs 🤗 Joni

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  7. Tremaine, I found this poem relatable. Perhaps none of us can ever quite live up to our parents’ expectations. For me, it was being unable to follow their religion. Beautifully and poignantly expressed! ❤

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